My Intentions for February 2019

This week I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting. It all started out with having to reflect on a weekly basis for one of my university modules, noting down progress on my ‘learning journey’ with International Criminal Law. Initially, I thought that this was just a silly form of assessment for a module, however, I’ve had a change of heart. This type of weekly journalling has made me reflect on far more than just international criminal law, making me think about different areas of my life and things that I would like to change. Without getting too personal, I thought I’d share some of those with you. Maybe it will inspire you to do the same?

I am a strong believer in the law of attraction. I’ve read ‘The Secret’ and while I don’t agree with everything, I agree with Rhonda Byrne’s underlying message: the thoughts you put out into the universe manifest into reality. I’ve tested out this theory in the past year and it truly works. At the start of the year/month/week (whatever suits you), write down what you want to achieve. I write down big goals of mine on a piece of paper and I place it somewhere that I’ll see daily. Having that constant reminder motivates me to work on actually achieving those goals. That’s the thing – I don’t think it’s as easy as simply thinking of what you’d like to achieve, you have to WORK towards that goal. At least a little. It’s only when I look back at goals I’ve set for myself in the past that I have realised that I have come a long way and managed to accomplish them.

Without further ado, here are some of my February intentions for 2019. I’ve always loved following Lee Tilghman’s intentions through her stories on Instagram (@leefromamerica) and this is my version. It’s not a complete list by any means, just something I want to have made significant progress on by March.

Friendships

I take my friendships very seriously. I can’t begin to count the amount of times I’ve cried in my lifetime over friends – my mom can attest to that. Whenever my friends are going through a difficult time, I feel like I’m right there with them. Their struggles are my struggles. While this is something that I like about my personality, it’s cost me a lot of tears and stress. I have been told numerous times to lower my expectations in regards to friendships. My usual response is defensive… “Why should I lower my expectations when I do x, y and z for them!? I expect them to do the same for me!”. It was in January 2018 that I had a major rethink and decided that it was necessary for me to approach friendships from a different perspective to avoid disappointment and, ultimately, resentment. So far, it’s worked! However.. I feel like it has worked too well and taken a toll on my long distance friendships. You know, those friends that live abroad or on the other side of the country. In February, I want to make an effort in keeping in touch with my friends that I don’t see regularly. Whether that be visiting them or inviting them to my place, or scheduling in a FaceTime call and actually keeping to it. I was so happy to be able to catch up with my friend Tereza (pictured above) this weekend that it’s made me realise how important it is to stay in touch with your friends who you don’t see regularly.

Travel

I mentioned this in my last post but I’ve been itching to get on the next flight abroad. I’ve booked a trip to Luxembourg which is coming up soon and, honestly, I am just so excited to be able to see my family again. Especially, my dog. I cannot wait to give Richy the biggest cuddle ever! He turned 12 years old a few days ago which is absolutely crazy. I feel like it was yesterday that he was a small puppy on his way to our house from the breeder. Coming back home always grounds me. I’ve not been in a great headspace recently and I know that that will instantly change after a good old catch up with my mom. ❤️My back has been in so much pain so I suggested we get a massage when I’m home! In the meantime, getting my flatmate to walk on my back seems to be working.

Jobs

Oof, this was a big one in January. I knew this year would be stressful on the job front being in final year of university and feeling the overwhelming pressure to secure that prestigious grad scheme. What I was not prepared for was the internal critic I would have to face in the process. It is so difficult not to see other peoples’ successes as your failures and I’ll admit that I felt that in January. Having had a few deep and meaningful conversations with family and friends, I’ve come to realise that I really need to stop putting myself down and recognising my strengths. I am SO hard on myself and have a serious case of imposter syndrome. In February, I am going to be kinder to myself and start recognising my achievements. The job that is right for me is out there and I will get it. Just maybe not in the exact timeframe and way that I had planned it and that is okay. I will continue working hard in the knowledge that everything happens for a reason and that I WILL achieve what I put my mind to.

Law Ball 2019

Boy, oh, boy. Organising Law Ball 2019 is the bane of my existence. The endless stress, last minute changes or cancellations, the drama… If only you knew. Nevertheless, I would not change my experience for the world. I have learned so much from this experience and it has truly put my skills to the test. I am so happy that I get to work with such an amazing team of people and I cannot wait for 23rd of February to roll around the corner. I know it’s going to be a stressful night but it will also be so rewarding. Having planned numerous events of a large scale, I know that there will always be something that happens which is unexpected. You know how the saying goes… expect the unexpected. That’s what I’m trying to channel for Law Ball 2019. My intention for Law Ball is to not let my perfectionism take over and simply do the best that I can without ruining my own mood. Gosh, that sounds cynical, doesn’t it? No, scratch that. My intention for Law Ball 2019 is to showcase the incredible work of my team and actually enjoy the night with my closest friends and peers. THAT’S my intention.

I know this was a somewhat different post from me but I love it when I can connect with you on a more personal level. It genuinely still surprises me how many of you tell me that you keep up with my blog posts and give me your feedback or thoughts! It warms my heart. I would LOVE to hear what your February intentions for 2019 are. Let’s achieve our goals together!!!

What do you hope to achieve in February 2019?